fri sat and sun

hai didnt realise that i 3 day never blog ...
althought i online for those 3 days ...
so now going to blog wad i remember ...
on friday ... wahaha ... whole day at home ... haha .. playing .. la .
simply not studying ...
playing and playing and chatting and chatting ... haha ...
hai ... she got a job ... but when she was having a exam ...
is ok ba ... jus hope she will cope it well ... haha ...
she can de ...
hai i do care ... erm ... still ...
haha ... hai will keep it short cos got to study ...
then sat wahaha ... morning wake up late then afternoon go wif friends play
lan gaming ... cos friend got his "passport" cos relationship passport ... haha
then we long time no like this gather ... so there we go and after that ... we went to ubi cc for our training ... hai as usually i did nth there ... cos too tired from the gaming to train ... haha lol ...
hmm then went home ... play game again ... haha ...
then tired wor ... then go to bed ard 1
haha guess wad bro watching wwf ... i mean wwe .. then i wanna slp then suddenly ...
i hear him snore ... fuk ...
then i wake him up ...
scold him ...
wanna slp then slp wanna watch then don slp ...
knn always i close tv for him ...
angry ...
arghs ... then he say he wanna watch ... then knn after that i super awake ... so went to cook mee ... eat liao then went to study ... one qns ... haha a veri long qns la ... then after that ... tired liao ... so went to slp ... i think 2 plus to 3 ba ... then next day ...
sunday ...
woke at 828 by zi wei ... cos he suddenly got to go back to camp then he cannot go teach ... nono ... he first ask me if i free today ... then i say no ... then i ask him why ... then he told me that ... then i see time 828 then i say ... time don allow ... i go there the class end ... if he say earlier i sure go de ...
hai then again woke at 9 ...
hai to morning call my friend ... i help her when she was down wif her bf ...
haha now they are back liao ... haha ... happy for them ...
she wanna wake at 9 cos her bf is hosting those kids show at 930 i think ... haha ...
morning call at 9 is ok for me liao .. i have got use to morning call ppl ... haha ... but not waking up ... haha ... then i slp till 1 ... omg ...
then eat lunch ... then slp and slp till 4 ... wahaha ... is like entire afternoon is slping ... haha then went to play game again ... play till also forget wad time ... haha then went to bath and study 3 more qns ...
then qns i mean is exam qns ... cos we got tips ... know exactly wad qns liao ...
haha ... then after that went out to eat again ... omg ... haha ... eat and eat ...
now till mei mei say i didnt blog i then realise i forget all abt bloggy ... haha ... sry hor ...
then now ... going back to study ... stress liao ... haha ...

anyway ... i got used to my life now ...
althought i am looking for new life now ...
but i treat everything as new ... including u ...
haha yeah ... still will sad and miss those time whenever i see
sth ... even small little things ...
haha i ready to move on wif everything as new ... but i know to u ... i wont be new

but is ok ... haha ...
yaya i yesterday watch a vcd call shaolin temple ... wow ... the skill knn
power .. haha ... lol ... is realli old shaolin ppl ... cos this show veri long ago liao ... haha ... vier long ... before i was born ... and when jet lee was young ...
haha okok I GOING BACK TO STUDY LIAO ..
take care to all ppl i am concern wif ...
u all know who i mean ...
anyway ... tc on ur night work ... jia you ... dun forget ur exams ... study hard ...
haha ... okok realli i go study liao bb ...

Thursday At home

wahaha ... morning woke up jus to play game ... omg ... eric ... u are in deep shiit ...
no exam dun play when got exam then u play ... hai ...

nvm ... then hor ... terrible afternoon ... haha ...

haha ... then cannot study ... cos cant concentrate ...
haha ... so slack .. haha ... heng got gin blog de tag to play wif and have fun ... haha lol ...

haha ... think must learn from her ... no go online ... haha ...
but she still got online ... haha ... to reply tag ... haha ... lol ...

hai ...
hope her sociology can pass good good ... or at least pass ... haha ...
hope the rest of her module wadever she remember by hard will come out ... haha ...
good luck girl ...
i will always wish u all the best wif the best of luck ...
anyway have fun tml in sch ... and ur jian fei cheng gong ...
study and stress too much ... then keep eating and eating ... haha ...
jian fei cheng gong wor ... haha ... u can de ...

Yo Yo Yo Verse One ...

yoyo ... tonight will have my wuha by wibler from shir ... weee ...
haha...

today the exam ... the qns wad as wad the tips has given ... in fact is the same ...

i know hardly got ppl come in see my blog ... onli some close friends ...
haha good ma ...
low profile for this type of things ... haha ...
hmm ... so haha leak some exam top secret is ok ... wahha ... lol ...
jkjk if i know the top secret ... i wont be sittng here typing ... i will be behind some iron like gate ... squatting there ... eating rice bake by black bean ...
hey duo fan ... haha ... lol ...

hai ya ... actually hor ... got some things i wanna write ... but cant ...

hai ... yaya .. ya ...
i got one qns here ... nearly forget ...
how to define flirt ???
i mean in specific terms ... haha ... sth i stuck on .. haha ...
and wad do u think of flirt and flings ... haha ...

haha lol ...
haha ... in process of the next stage in my human life cycle ... hai ...
blur ...

the day before exam

haha hai ... slowly getting used to this shiit man ...
haha ...

but still got a obstacle that will be ther forever ...
haha ...

lol ... but ok la ...
today ... at least got study wor ... haha ...
not bad ...
tml exam ... stress liao ... of cos wil study la ... haha ...
lol ... actually hor ... if u see a place wif typing ... this 3 dots ...
haha appearing everywhere ... that will has to be me ... haha ... i type de ... haha ... lol ... kind of used to it liao ... haha lol ...

okok la ... don wanna blog too much today ,... haha going back to study ...
dbi0309 ... god luck to exam ... and also to gin ... u too gd luck ... and also ... uma and mel ... haha ...
yeah ... haha ... okok bb ...

god damn it ...

god shiit ... monday was a totaly shiit ...
first is i cant study ...
second is ...
i got myself into total shiit ...

god damn it ...
why is this happening ...
eric wad are u doing ...
wake up ...
how cum like that ... in jus a matter of few hours ... and i got into this mess ...
hmm is it a mess i still dun know ...
but i predict ... hard road down ahead ...
is it realli hard road ... onli time will tells ...

haha ... hai ... jus cant believe it myself ... hai ...
if this is bad ... i think i will get deeper ...
if this is good ... then so be it ...
hai ... don know la ... exam is on wed and i cant study ... god save me ...

hai .. god bless ...

A Day Of Worth Celebrating

Morning woke at 900 haha ... need to call sum one ... haha ...

trying to help ... haha ...
then mum called ...
knn ...
last night never mention us ...
i also forget liao ... is my cousin or also my god mum's daughter getting married ... haha ...
so woke up and went off for wedding lunch ... haha ... lol ..

lunch ... haha ... funny ...

then hor ... reach there ... wow she is beautiful ... veri beautiful ... weeuuu we ..
haha lol ...

then haha ... now they shld be have erm ... how shld i say ...
baby making ba ... haha ...

lol at the hotel there ... haha ...
the room quite nice and furnished ... haha ...
then hey ... i sat at first table ... vip table ... cos god son ma ... haha ...
of cos la ... haha ... got ppl serve somemore ... felt so high ... haha first time ... and first time go up stage yum seng haha ... lol ...

shoik ... then hor ... end of everything ... i wonder ... when will be my big day ...
when will it arrive ... hai ... haha ... so sweet ... hai ...
my wife ... hah ... still long for me to say this ... haha
i wanna get married before i turn 27 ... but best is go wif fate ...
shun qi zi ran ... haha ...

haha ... hai ... 天下无双
haha lol ... waiting ... hai ...
then now ... went play game ... knn when they say now i will bring u to next stage ... my com shut down totally ... knn ...don know wad happen ... realli next stage ... shut off stage .... hai ... then went back in ... hai ... then suddenly all the feelings is back in me ... u know she and me ...
hai ... killing me ...
is jus like poison ...
sometimes will activate sometimes wont ... haha ..
hai ... haha ... then now ... no heart to study liao ... hai ... wad to do ...

honestly ... my heart is crying now ... crying sadly now ... hai ...
who can understand me ...
qing hua du ...
love plant poison ...
this poison is when kanna u cannot think of love if not u will die ...
if i realli kanna ... tell u ... u will be dead long ago ...
wu si bu ke wo zai xiang zhe ni ...

haha ... i feel so silly ...
stupid of me ...
i can onli secretly doing little things for her ... haha ...
who will know ... nobody ... :'(

never been so sad for so long before ...
never in my life ...
now it is happening right now ...
pieceing up every pieces of my broken heart ...
paper heart ... ya ...
my 10 dollar paper heart ... so weak so vulnerable ...
haha guess i am jus like that ba ... haha ...
i am always on the losing side ... since small ...
always on the losing side ...
always suffering ...
forget it ... suan le ... don wanna say le ...
feeling more worst ...

lol a pull grass sat

haha woke up quite late la today ... then went out to pa to pull grass .. haha ...

there hai yo ... so many wild grass and hor while pulling ...
we saw this small creature ...
look like snake and has 4 legs ...
we call it 4 leggy snake ... haha ... realli small ... haha ...but the skin is veri shiny ... haha ... then like water snake like that ... haha lol ...
hai .. me and my friend spoilt the broom each ... haha ... both new broom we spoilt it haha lol loh ... hai ... sian ... after that went home then not much things happen ... hai ... also dun know wad to write ... hai ... okok la... i think i shall stop here ba haha ...

take care ... bb huggies ...

九王爷 九王爷 九王爷 九王爷 九王爷

九王爷 wahahah .... went to join in the crowd to send him back to south heaven gate ...
nan tian men ... haha ...

then at changi beach ... haha ... rain sia ... knn so cold ... haha but ok la ...
hai ... ooo no ... i stomach pain now ... tok to ya later ... bye

天若有情天亦老，月如無恨月長圓。

天若有情天亦老，月如無恨月長圓。
haha this is the correct one ... hah ...
ard one month ago ... i think i blog the wrong phase ... haha ...
lol there ... this is then the correct de ...
天若有情天亦老，月如無恨月長圓。
hai ...
tian ruo you qing tian yi lao, yue ruo wu heng yue chang yuan ...
i finally know the meaning ... hai ...

meaning i figured out myself ...
天若有情天亦老
no matter if heaven got or dun have feeling or "relation" heaven also will grow old .. meaning why not have feeling
月如無恨月長圓
if moon doesnt have hate, there shall be more full moon ...
moon is jus like a cold palace ..
jus like chang er banish to moon ...
is a cell to lock ppl by heaven for having feelings or "relations"
thats y it is hated ... ut if it isnt hated ... wont is be beautiful ...
jus like full moon ... which is so beautiful ..

haha ... understand ??? haha ...
thats wad i understand from it ... haha ... 天若有情天亦老，月如無恨月長圓。

hai ... gtg eat liao ...
later going to send 9 king uncle ... haha jiu wang ye ... now no time to make chinese word ... later ba ...
going to send them back ... haha ...

take care gin
take care shi hui
take care lollipink
take care cheryl
take care yi wei
take care jia hui

haha ... lol ... like i am going to leave forever like that ... haha ... no la ... jus wanna say i miss all of u ... haha ... especailly she ... haha yeah ...
she = my blogs name .. haha ...

c ya ... bb ... i will pray to 9 wang ye for all ur safety ... and good result for those haven take exam ... haha ... i think onli left me and gin ba ... haha ...
gd luck ...

SORRY BLOGGIE ...

sry bloggie ... so long no talk to u ...

cos i got to rush for my proj ma ... at my friend hse ... haha ...

then finally all presented ... so song ...

haha ... hope is distinction case ba ...
haha ... hai ... then the fuking internet ... keep gif me prob ... now i know how to solve it liao ... muahahaha ...
haha

hai .ya ... actually i got alot to tell u ...
but jus ... cant remember or dun know wad and how to tell ...


hai ... so many ppl kanna w32.funner ... wish i could help ... but the patch provided must manually remove it ... haha ...
how to help them ...
one is my mei ... one is sum one valued to me ...

hai ... i am so useless ... hai ... forgif me ...
hai ... sian ...
i am ok when i am busy ... but when ... like now ... nth to do ..
then i will ... hai ... forget it ... think u know wad i saying ... haha ...

okok i shall stop here ... bye

wad a sunday

haha ...
morning ... wake up wash face ...
go ps haha for movie ...
yeah
ouija board ...
today is sneak preview
haha is abt a grp of gers wanted revenge on classmate who bully here ...
and so they summon a girls and got curse ...
this girl wif her mum suffered same thing in this village ...
the fault of this curse must blame the village ppl and the leader ...
hai ...
then kill here and there ppl ... that bullies and ppl that cause the spirit to die .. 30 years ago ... haha ...
then ending ... the mum and ghost reborn ...
tot is happy ending ... but at the end the small girl become veri feirce ... hai sian ...

haha then after that i went home to rush proj ... haha ... lol

hai ... rush till now ... so hungry ...
hai ... somehow .. i will still miss her ...
don know if she some how or some time got miss me anot ... hai ... nvm ...
bb nite ...

my saturday

wahaha ... morning woke up is online ... haha ... nth much to do ... see the
heavenly sword and dragon sabra again ... haha ...
then afternoon went out to parkway ...
to buy present ... haha ...
ya for her and other friends also la ... haha ..

shh secret .... wont tell u wad i bought haha ...

then came back home ... internet prob again ... then i shut all down and go bath ...
heng com ok liao back to normal ... haha ...

then dinner yummy ...
first is go the 9 wang ye there bai bai ... after that go parkway again to eat ...
at the banquet ... haha is nice la ... haha ... so long no go out eat wif parents ... haha

then came back home ... hai fought wif fuking bro for the fuking computer ... hai ... dun tok abt it ...

hai .. now 2 pm bro wanna use again ... hai ... bb

back ...

sry wor bloggie ... so long no blog u ...
cos com spoilt and busy wif asp.net ... haha

alot of things went on this few days ... hai ...
too long to say and i also chose to forget them ... haha ...

no choice ...
forgeting everyday so that i will onli be able to see the future onli ...
forcing myself hard ...

haha ...
add on to my brain stress is proj and on coming exam ... haha ... buai tahan ...
hai ... so sian ...

realli stress up ... asp sux .... simply suck ... haha ...

hai ... hope she understand how i feel then .... i was worst then wad she feel now ...
but i dun wish her to be sad la of cos ...

but jus ... nth i can do ...

haha ...hai ... i shall jus end here today ... hand tired of all the coding and typing ... nite ... bye ...

self trap at home ... on a sunny sunday

bloggie ... hai ... i am so bored ... hai ... morning till afternoon proj ... after that ... keep slacking ... and slacking ... hai ... see tv ... here and there ...
hai ...
even till now so slack ... dun wish to continue proj liao ... so sian ...
and hor ...
hai ...
today got a continuation of my msn nick
问天下人, 我为谋人, 谁来为我
haha if is 2 months ago ...
it shld be
我为谋人, 谋人为我

but now theres a change ...
haha ... hai ... life is so unpredictable ...
so changable ...
a profound and undying love ...
thats wad 明教 教主 张无忌 say to zhi ruo for his love to zhao min ...
haha ...
onli ppl that got watch jin yon show will then know ...
haha ...
sian ...
wads life abt ... wonder when will my luck be good again ...

问天下人 为和, 如果, 倘若, 也许, 或者, 可能, 莫非
if there isnt these words ard ...
everything in life will be more clearer ...
loneliness is killing me ...
i am so lonely now ...

A Veri Boring Sat

this is the worst sat i ever had ...
no ppl to sms ...
no ppl online that can tok to ...
bored wif the proj ...
omgosh ... hai ...
sian ...
then in msn wrote these nick
自古多情空于恨, 此恨绵绵无觉惜 ...
问世间情为何物, 只叫人日夜思念 ...
hai the last part 日夜思念 i change myself de ...
hai .. sian ...
one can lie to everyone maybe including heaven ...
but one surely cant lie to himself ...
cos onli he know that he is lying ...
thats me ...
been lying all along ...
but not bad ...
at least by lying it brings me to sum where i feel better ...
hai ... sian ...
wo chu chu wei ni ...
shui lai wei wo ...

sad sad sad veri sad

now time 3.04 am morning of sat night ...
blogging fri event ...
hai ... the day was still ok ... veri tiring ...
slept late woke up early ...
came home and slept abit ...
ai ya ...

then jus now bro using com ... i was at my bedroom ...
suddenly i jus feel kind of empty ...
cos clearing up the mess liao le ma ...
ya veri empty ...
no cosy at all ...
feel cold inside ...

guess got to live in this poor state for quite a long time ba ...
hai ya ... dun know la ... i am veri tired ... like i said ...
physically tired ... mentally and my heart most tired ... further add on from proj and exam stress ... guess i cannot take it ...
i got once nearly driven to nuts ...
i am serious ...
that period of time i feel i was like in depression mode ...

exhausted ...
i need some confort ...
i need some warmth ...
can someone jus hug me tight ...
i lost my hug and in need of one now ...

dying of cold and mentaly break down ...

late at night writing to blog

wahah now is 2 am in the morning ...
so i am writing things abt happen yesterday ...

haha ... ai ya jus now do proj thats y no time ma ... haha

hmm in the morning late for lesson again ...
cos i every nite slp late at 2 plus ..
cos of proj ... hai ...

then late and late and late ... haha ...
then reach sch do proj for 3 hours like ... continous u know ... stress ...
all the codes ... hai ... brain gonna burst and we all are going mad liao ...
haha ... don know is pro or wad i am typing now with me eyes closed
serious ... haha ...
too tired from the com screen ...
but nvm la who cares abt me ...

then jus now in the evening reach home then went out again ...
haha go see rui yan first performance ...
a stage performance ...
or rather i shld say is a floor performace haha not bad ...
thumbs up ... haha ...
but is kind of lame ...
haha 12 dollars like that flew away ...
but is ok la ... for a friend ...
worth spending ... haha ...
hmm not going to type much ...
ya one thing ... today morning got bad mood ...
but after calm down and think abit plus todays horoscope from streats ...
i am ok liao ...
hai ya ...
still got wad can make me moody right now ... haha ...

NOW i need sum slp ...
so bloggie ... good nite ...
missing the nights where i slp so sweetly ...
and wake up in the morning full of energy ...
thats the power of love ...
not like now ...
power of stress controlling over me ... haha ...
project and exam and mental stress ... wahaha

wad can i say abt today ...

sob sob ...
crying hard in my hard ...
trying to avoid ...
trying to hide ...
acting hard to be happy and normal ...

think i can gif myself a gold horse award ...
zi you tao bi wo cai ke yi guo de bi jiao hao yi dian ...

qing ge wang zi zhang xin zhe
she bu de ni ...
hai ...
lyrics so true to me ...

who can understand the pain i am going thru ...
guess some ppl will ...

hate those fuk up feeling ...

how will u feel if see the one u love feel sad for the one she love ...
and the one she love is not u ...

u will be even sad right ... but who is going to care how sad u going to be ...

if looking back from now ...

it seems i am being dump for another guy ...


but maybe thats not the case
wadever it is ...

i am jus a piece of rubbish shit ..
thats wad i feel i am now ...

but so wad a rubbish maybe will get burn
or maybe made into a recycle item ...

but now i am still in the smelly rubbish bin located in a uluu place on earth ...
have yet been collected for years ...
still waiting for someone to collect it ...

Yos back ... haha going to try sth ... select all in order to read the words ... or press crtl then press a

wahah ... back to post again wor haha

wad to say ... this few days veri busy wif asp.net ... haha
my proj la ...
haha today jus finish tcp/ip phew haha ...

so shoik ... haha ...
then hor ... haha ... my class used to haf 4 grp
now is 3½ grp but within grp got alot of changes ...
haha ...
my grp lost 2 ppl but gain few more wor ...
haha the guys ... haha mopre united ...
jus few ppl we consider as burden haha lol ...
oops ... hope those ppl wont see this haha ...
ok la ...
the other grp i briefly intro ...
that is a loner
and the rest is allies onli hah .. lol wad toking i ...

now abt myself ... feel alot better ...
ya but when in mac fj or walking pass blk a ...
my eyes will keep look out ... haha ...
jo always notice me ... haha lol ...
bo bian she know me too well le ... haha ...
ai ya ... cos wad i do is also wad she always do also ma ...
haha ...

i will jus be behind a wall and doing things 4 u
yeah ... u will always be the one i always love
even if i found another one ... u will still be there ...

yeah ... haha ... hmm ...
now going to chiong proj liao ...
waiting for mel to come online to teach her physic ... she don wanna fail haha ...
ooo ya mel is shihui my big mei de cousin ... haha
and waiting for my third mei to come online too ... haha ...
yeah ...
she is the onli person left that i feel i can communicate wif ... haha ...

bored sad ...
life sux ... yeah ... so wad ...
gtg bb ...

Final words

bloggie ...
i lost the source to carry on this blog ...
wad i wish to see has finally arrive ...
from her last 3 post ... i know ...

i know i understand why i am treated this way ...

it shld be me ...
i will be delicating michael learns to rock's (That's why)you go away
why this song ...
look at the lyrics ...
baby wont u tell me why there is saddness in your eyes
i dont wanna say good bye to you love is one big illusion i should try to forget
but there is something left in my head you're the one who set it up
now you're the one who make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now u want me to forget every little thing u said
but theres sth left in my head ...
i wont forget the way u kissing
the feeling so strong were lasting for so long
but i'm not the man ur heart is missing
thats y u go away i know
you were never satisfied no matter how i tried
now u wanna say good bye to me
love is one big illusion i should try to forget
but there is something left in my head
chorus ...
sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
dont know which way to go
there aint so much to say now between us ...
there aint so much for u there aint so much for me anymore ...

thats the end of lyrics ...

i am so sad ...
i am affect by every word you say ...
u happy i happy ...
u sad i sad ...
u moody i moody ...
but yet i still wish to know ur mood ...
my feeling is no longer a prioty in ur heart ...

you made me so love and yet so hate ...
make me hated myself even more ...

who knows wad i feeling now ...
i am totally lost althought i seem arent ...
it pain ... still hurt as much even if i seem fine and good ...
the actor is dying ...
i wish to die ...
that seems the best way ...
bloggie ...
Gy-In-Nov ... i name u after her from every start of each word ...
now the source has gone ...
i think ... i wont be blogging on u liao ...
cos i am dead ... cos my life support has gone to support others ...

:'( who knows i am crying so deeply but yet the person i crying for is crying for others ... who will understand me ...

yi wei say i think too much ... ya seem so ...
but it seems to me she is veri concern for someone now ...
and not me ... i don feel it ...
sour and yet anger abt myself ...

i will never forgive myself ...