growing up

haha no idea of how to write la ... so came up with a topic and relate it to life ...

haha lol ... life is
cryable
laughable
speakable
unspeakable
simple
complicated ...

haha wad i am trying to say is life is everything we can ever think of ...

haha lol hmm my life been thru loads of ups and downs ...
i understand wad it is trying to say ..

like when i meet a failure
e.g. last time in relationship ...

i will tell me self ... it happen for a reason ... i will find out that reason and make sure it don happen again ..
some ppl will say fate or god make this happen blah blah ... but one thing most impt is learn from it ... that is why god and fate gave u this lesson to learn ... if u dun learn it will gif u the same lesson again haha lol

true ???

haha in life we must be satisfied with wad we had ...

if it is of a material gain of cos we must go for the better when it is within our capablilies after planning for the future ...
if is related to the heart matters ...

be satisfied with wad u had ...be happy with wad u had ...
be satisfied that u had someone that love u ...
and stay with them ... and in return they will do the same ... only if they understand ...

if u see one better then go for another ... u will end up nothing ... emptyiness

e.g. of a story

a teacher with a student ...
the teacher ask the student to walk from on end of the field to another and cannot walk back ...
when walking ... pluck only 3 beautiful grass to gif her ...
then student walk ... and pluck
and gave to her teacher 3 normal grass
the teacher ask ... is that the most beautiful ...
the student say no ... before that he sees more beautiful one ...
but he thinks that there will be better ahead so he din pluck and walk on
and when he is reaching near end of the field he has no choice but to pluck the best he sees ...

understand ???

i related to life ...
when we are young(start of the field)
there are alot of choices of gf and wife ...
when we had them ... we always think there is better one more prettier one ... more loving one coming into my life ... then we neglect the current one ... or lost interest ...
then we always expect the better and not treasuring the current ..
when we are getting older and older(walking towards the end of field)
your choices gets lesser and lesser cos less attractive or wadever reason u can think of ...

then that time u will regret ... ai ya should have stayed wif her and treasure her ... and that time u will regret ...

i always treasure wad i hold most dearest to me ...
but always is wad most dearest to me abandon me for the better ...
but i believe in this one .. she different she is not like others ... sth different unique and of cos special abt her ... unexplainable in words ... in chi is call
qi zhi
yeah yeah ...

haha ooo ya my story doesnt mean u cannot go for the better ... of cos there are certain case ... like in some r/s ppl found someone better and will uphold this treasuring belief ... of cos this new couple will be better then the old one ...

yeah ... is always balancing the pros and cons ...