3rd blog of the day ...

guilty ... ashame ... sorry ...

sorry seems to be the hardest word

gomen ...
after reading ur blog ... i was like totally ashame of myself ...
don know wad to say ... lost for words ...
any one who see this ... must know ...
i did sth terrible wrong ...
sth i got to learn ...

told her i must learn to control my stickness also ...
and also don think too much ...
hate my brain ...
too good at think alot ...
in fact think too much ...
hate myself to the bottom ...
she say need time to recover ...
also heng got ly and the joyce talk to her ...
don know wad they tok ... but she say she was cheer up ...

feel i am the worst guy in this world ...
qian gu zui ren ...
thousand valley bottom guilty man ...

hai ... she say is over le ... haha ...
sth we learn abt each other ...
learn from mistake ...

ya ...
i miss her ... luv her ...
hope she will get will fast ...

i love her ... muacks ...

wanna say again

...
i realli think i shld not say ...
but nvm ... say liao got to solve it ...

calming myself ... done ...
see the situation ... done ...

wanna say ...
u say it was 50 50 ... think i know ... ba ...

wanna say ... wo heng ai ni ... bu nen mei you ni
dan shi wo bu xiang rang ni bu kai xin ...
shuo cu lai ... wo zhuo de dao ...
wo hui zhuo ...

i love u alot ... u are my everything ... cannot dont have u ...
but yet i don want u feel no good and unhappy ...
say it out ... i will do wadever i can ...
to make this relationship even better ...

...

low sad unhappy

wo bu kai xin ...

wad a day ... morning visit teachers ... so memorable ... hai ...

then i went home ... slpet for 10 mins ... went to amk ...

reach there waited for her ...
then saw her ...
saw she hungry ...
went to eat ...
hai ...

someone say me come for wad so BO LIAO ...
i came for her and was said bo liao ...

then went she post me a limitation ...
cannot send her home ...
i was ok at then ...

nvm then went gai gai ...
after that she don want me follow her home ...
she told me why ...
i already told u i go straight to mrt and u go home ...
y u still gif that kind of sian face to me ...
hurt me u know ...

sad veri sad ... went straight ...
that road was veri quiet ...
she has the sian look on her face ...
i was fan veri fan ...

then saw her walk home ...
i sat at the bridge ther for 15 min ...
waiting for a sms ... a sms wishing me gd bye ...
that will make me feel everything is alright all is ok ...
didnt ... 15 mins pass ... sms came ...
hai ... was my friend ...
i felt veri sad
veri
then went off to mrt ...

sat on the mrt floor looking at the floor think alot of thingsss ...
the more i think the more i became fan ...

i felt my presence wasnt appreciated ...
it make me feel i was a sticky tape ...
liam ...
maybe i shldnt have come at all ... shld have slept in bed all the way ...
or maybe i shld get knock down by car ...
coma forever till my death time comes ...
i am veri sad ...

shld i go tml ... i don know ... god tell me ...
i am not going to see her next week ...
i am planning to go find her at times ...
but later she say i bo liao how ...
i will be despare ...

i am feeling i am a worthless guy ...
when guys don treasure the one they say they love ...
girls say guys are bad ...

but i am treasuring the one i love ...
yet i am feeling that all this is wad i shld gif ...

wads is wrong wif me ...
i don know ...

i am feeling was i mean to u ...
maybe u are sick of seeing me ...
maybe one day u will get so sick of me that i shld exist in ur life anymore ...

wad on earth is this ...
pls tell me that i am wrong ...
pls tell me wad is it then ...

A Normal but happening day ...

wahhaha ...

today a traveling day ...
morning wake up late at 10 plus ... then i think sian la ... slp
wake up wa 11 plus liao ... slowly bath then go out to sch do proj
reach liao ... buy mac spicy double to eat ... do half way proj they say go eat ... so eat then no do liao ... slack ... then go find some resources ...

then yeah 3 o clock plus abit liao ... go take train to bukit batok ...
haha go find her la ... she poor thing first day of attachment leg pain ... haha

slowly loh get use to it ...

haha ... hmm then walk abit buy popiah ... haha .. eat abit onli ... later dinner can eat also ... haha ... good ...
then bought sweet ... arghs ... kanna ban ... cannt eat sweet ... can onli
"smell" "see" haha but in the end ban lifted liao ... haha ... yupee ...

hehe ... then zoom ...
at stairs liao ... wahaha

hot passionate ***
..............
..............
then argh ... someone pop up ... her god dad .. wahahah ...
haha ok la heng he we clever ... haha ...
he got our ba bing liao ... wahaha ...
haha never let ppl bully u becos they got ur ba bing ...
no bullies will be tolerate ... muahaha ... haha lol ...

now at home in front of the com doing hw ...
my fav subject ... most fav tutor ... most fav hw ...
but arghs .. hungry ... got dinner ok liao ... but teacher u see i so good do hw then eat ...
haha ...

haha ...
okok la i buai tahan liao ... going to eat liao ... buai buai ...

521 1314
muack ...

A Normal but yet Lovely Day

yos yos ... past nidnight writing this blog
burning midnight oil but yet i feel awake .
out in tis street under the big blue sky ..
thinking of you makes my heart got wild ...
you are the one for me and you know it ....
i love u like i will alway do forever .....
there is a ring tone just for u and me ....
there is a song jus for our cupid-heart ...
under tis bright moonlight i swear 2 god ..
i swear that i will always be there for u .
no matter what we r link by the name of god

haha suddeny feel like writing si or sth like that ...

haha ... specially made that that somebody ...
haha ... hmm today ... morning and afternoo nth much la ...
slp com slp tv ... then go wushu liao ... haha
went on mrt alone listen to mp3 ...
wa tell u hor at mrt damn to lan wif a guy ...
despo or pervert ... keep looking at a pretty or rather
good looking lady ard age 24 like that ... i can see the eye ball ..

wah kao ... keep looking ... i keep doing movement
to show i am disturbed and not please wif it ..
fianlly he notice it and reduce abit ... then the lady
also buai tahan ... stare back at him ... knn ...
if he dare do anything ...
i may me soft on him .. but my sword wont ...
use my sword beat him up like hell ...
pervert guy ... pui pui pui ...
then he finally got down ... phew good thing ... haha ...

hmm then continue to listen to mp3 ... haha
reach training grd ... haha today practice abit of the new
sword and sabra then teach kids on how to spar ...
haha they need to perform in sch .. so got to teach them loh ..
haha ... not a bad day la today ... haha ...
then reach eunos went to eat sth wif friend ... haha yummy ..
then went home yawns ... then promise some one to write blog ... haha ..
there here i came ... this is my blog ...
haha my blog for ya ...
quite long liao la ... haha ... lol

okok going to slp liao if not tml cant wake u up ... haha

buai night ... tctc ... miss ya ...

A Fun and Loving Day Out at Down Town East ...

yos ... morning went to mum bed to slp ... cos bro using room then the powder smell arghs cant slp ... haha then hor ard 11 like that someone call me say boring liao ... wanna go out ...
haha then hor suggested go down town east the excape there ... haha ... wa ex wor ... pay for 3 person price ... hai ... nvm ... waiting for mel to pay hehe ...

haha i onli pay for her wor ... haha ...

okok went in liao ... haha ... then the first one is the turn turn turn ...
wor the motion is still in moi ... haha ... spinning ... spin till abit gong liao ...

haha ... then hor next also turn .. this time is the front back swing plus turn turn turn ...

haha ... baui tahan ... realli giddy ... abit like wanna vomit liao ... haha ...

then hor haha ... song go the go kart ... haha ... moi first one ... went speeding all the way ... press oil all the way ... haha ... then hor when we were queue ... haha got a sg kid and a ang moh kid ... before that they were racing ... then the sg kid lost ... he angry ... when going to parking ... hah he bang into him ... haha ... then they like stare at each other ... haha ... hai sg character ... haha ...

then the ang moh also like lan lan ... haha ...

then next hmm ... let me think ... ya is the wild and wet ... haha ... big splash ... haha i didnt went cos cannot bring bag then hor i so stupid got locker ma ... haha. .. but nvm see them enjoy i also happy ... haha ... took photo for them ... haha ... running here and there to take pic for them ... haha sweat liao ... and they both abit wet liao ... haha ...

haha guess wad alpha8 was finally open ...yeah ... haha ... indoor roller coaster ... haha so shoik ... haha ... good turn ... i actually can see the track ... so i know were it is going to go la ... haha ... the coaster was 3 lvl ... first is the top part turn left and right ... then second is up and down last is
......
of cos la get down the train loh ... haha ...

shoik ... shoik ... haha ... then hor ... went to ... erm ...abit forget ... yaya ... orange julius ... haha then both eat sandwhich ... hai the bk queue so long lazy ... and i not that hungry cos stomach got abit butterfly ... cant eat much also ... so don waste money ...

haha ... then slept awhile ... haha ... anyway the orange juice taste weird ...
i wont buy it again ... haha

then haha i see them play the front back swing and turn turn turn ... haha

haha gin was like not scare liao ... haha ... for me i cant la ... later half way vomit ... haha ... then haha last part was fun ... we went to sit ... kids roller coaster ... haha shoik wor ... haha ... then next is the wheel thing i think is ferris wheel ... haha wher u will turn up and up and up ... haha ... think the person siao ... gif us turn so long ... haha ... then hor ... haha i si ji her ...

si ji success ... first time fail ... haha ... okok la ... then the last one ... haha flying man turn ... i think cos got kids ... so they make it slow ... haha ...
is fun ... but hor at the last part whe it go slow ... i giddy liao ... veri giddy ... cannot open eyes ... haha ... then hehehe ... is like superman ... flying high ... haha ...

then hai ... end of day liao ... yaya heng no have the 360 turning ... haha scary man that one ... haha ... then yl was like keep complaining y don have i want that ...

haha ... lol ... then haha bo bian ... wanna go home liao ... so went off ... step out .. then someone say wanna wee wee ... then go the chalet there ... saw ... wild wild wet ... wahahahahaha ...
we say liao next time go there ... haha ...

then the food there nice ... tempt me ... succeed ... i ate sth like ee mee ... haha

is nice ... haha ... then boom went off for home ...
mel took train home .. me and yl took bus ... yeah ... haha ... a double decker ... haha ... sit at the back ... haha ... have loads of *** ... fun la ... haha ... also wif mentos also right ... so next time see mentos will think of *** haha ... lol ...
gross is all she say ... haha ... but ok la ... thats the way it is and thats the way it shld be ...
haha ...
ya how can i forget ... got 100 plus also ma hor ... haha ... muack ...
then haha reach her home liao ... hmm ... spend quite some time there before i see her enter her hse ... hmm ... ***

hmm ... then went home ... first thing i do is bath ... wa come out shoik ... then online saw her not in her sis also ... then i think ... cos jus now she say sis using then she wanna blog also ... so if her sis isnt online then she shld be sleeping ... cos if she is buz she will also online first ... then i wait wait no have then went to eat and see tv ... then wanna blog de ... then i think she no online i blog liao nth to read ... then jus nice parent came back liao .. got food and tv ... so went see loh ...

haha then when come back see com ...
haha online liao ... so
start to write bloggie la ... that y u are reading this loh ... haha dude ...

haha ...
okok signing off liao ... wrote too much ..

muacks ... lub ya ...

wad a day today ...

haha morning hai woke up lazyly then late
hai then in mrt ... haha guess they are at mrt also ...
want to see her ...

haha wor come down escal cant see sad ... but haha she is at the other end ... block by the control tower ... haha ... lol
when saw her ... haha she is so pretty ... haha veri pretty ... pink swim suit wor ...
veri chio haha ... muacks ..

haha ... lol ... then lesson break at 9 haha then went to the other other side then there can see the swimming pool ... haha ... first is saw all boys ... sian .. then hey sw 3 girls ... haha cant see her ... haha block by tree . but awhile later haha saw her liao ... haha ... they all palying happily ... good ... enjoy wor ... i here boring ... haha ...
then met her in fj to eat ... haha she ate 2 pan cake ... think i don know she is hungry ... but wanna eat in afternoon haha ... hmm me have been spending alot on food ... hai .. cannot must eat less liao ... haha ...

then hor i 1 end lesson then go labby till 2 ... tot they finish at 2 ma ... then waited in fj ... haha so tired so lie there abit ... haha then they 3 then come out ... haha ... i am ok wif the waiting la ... haha ... ya i am hungry ... haha

then she went to amk meet friend ... wa ... alot of Qns ... is impossible type de she ask ... wont happen de loh ... wahah ... i am like arghs ... spare me pls ...

haha ... hmm first saw the bloggiee got the *** hmm been thinking ... haha is a guy ...
haha but nvm ... i remember the msn toking can liao ... hai

wonder there is how many more *** i will heart attack one day if still got any ... haha ...

then when going for training she call .. haha she so bored ... wanna tok but low batt ... haha ... lol loh ...

then later she call ... gave me a shock ... haha heng everything is ok ... that is good liao ... haha ... phew ... haha ...

hmm now tirely typing this bloggy ... haha ... chatting feeling so hungry ... wanna bite sth ... haha

buai buai ... go find food liao ... sniff sniff

Yos Yos

haha now in lab

haha not yet time for lesson ... so playing blog and game now ... haha saw her blog so nice ... getting more and more pro liao wor ... haha ... good good ...

me lazy to do this thing ... haha realli lazy ... profile also lazy to do ... u see la ... haha

any way ...haha yesterday never blog ... cos too late and too tired to blog anything ...
starting to get use to my new reformated com ...

laggy sia ... hai ... then hor alot of thing to do ... firewall ... anti virus spy ware ... wa all those stuff ... haha ... later tonight must play game ... so long no play liao ... hands itchy ... haha yeah going to hoilday soon ... song ... haha ...

hmm ya yesterday night after wushu went to meet her ... haha ... in pink erm pants or wadever ... boxer ... haha no la joking ... hmm so look so natural ... i like it ... haha ... then went to sit sit at the playgorund seat there then ... rain start to fall ... at first tot is tree fall water from the leaves ... then no arghs ... rain come liao ... haha then ok loh ... send her back home ... then at stairs then *erhm erm* haha ... see her go into house then went off for home ... haha ...


hmm ... today jus now got test ... haha ... then haha tutor know we all copy here and there ... he say faster go off before i get angry and give u all 0 marks ... haha he realli angry liao ... it was a simple test la ... haha ... lol ...


hmm went mac to sit sit tok cock ... hai nth to do ... sian ... later going to have asp programming ... wa ... going to concentrate liao ... wahha ... okok signing off here le .... buai buai

lubin u don need a reason
u r my strength my will my everything ...

that is y fate bring us together ...
that is y i fall deeply for u ...

Lub u wif all my life ...
muacks ....

Chong chu jiang hu

haha i am back .. blogging in sch ... my onli choice now ... going to reformat my com soon cos internet got problem ... cannot connect ... cannot talk to her ... miss her ... then sms .... break record 2524 sms ... haha ... lol ...
will have alot of thing to say in todays blog ... of wad happen when i didnt blog

first i going to say abt my national wushu conpetition ...

haha ... first match is my 3 men sparring match ...

won a third ... shld be 2nd ... but we cock it up abit ... it shld be my fault la ... hai

nvm ... next is 2 men weapon sparring ... haha ... we fought even fecier this time compare to inter sch ... won gold again ... haha ... 2 big cup again ... haha ...
then individual event a dismay again ... sword missing 2 step again in different place of the rountine ... hai ..
spear hai ... the carpet the centre there spilt open then i make alot of error ... hai ... then worst thing i am injured before the spear ...

then next day here come chang quan ... got 2 national ppl compete also ... hai ... injured ... sure no chance ...
then i pray to god before my event ... haha
guess wad .. prayers work ... i don feel any injuries at all .. feel good ... haha ...
guess wad ... haha i didnt beat the nationals la ... i got a third wor ... not bad ... i gave shi fu a heart attack cos i am injured ma ...

both leg thight injured and the kua there ... my lower back ... and both of my shoulder ... hai ... nvm getting well soon le ...
i don know why i got a fast recovery rate ... haha

then hor ... yesterday ... met her at the end of our class .. haha ... i think i miss her too much ... thats y was abit weird weird and abit too sensitve ... haha
but one must learn form their mistake mah ... right ... haha ...
learn sth of myself le ... haha

haha today ... she so early went to airport to send a friend off back to nepal ...
so sad ... cant study in sg ... but bo bian ... is gov ma ... hai ..

then back in sch ... haha wanna go amk buy the herbal tea for her ... thats y i purposely woke up abit early today ... but then she say don waste my trip ... then ok loh ... nvm ... maybe next time walk pass a the shop ... will make her drink it ... or ooo ya ... make honey for her ... ya ... haha ... then after sch meet her to walk long way ... haha ... uma and mel follow us till half way then we are on our own liao ... haha ... althought is jus a walk ... but i am veri happy that gov has actually create that path ... not too long not too short and windy somemore wor ... haha ... so nice walk home ...

then ate ice cream ... haha ... yummy ... the bread ... everything ... everything wif her ... haha then cos scare if i send her till her home will meet her mum that y we see each other off at the bus interchange there ... then i see her walk until she turn in into the lift there ... wanna catch every sight of her ma ... haha ... then went back to sch and to this lab to do my bloggie ...

gy-in-nov bloggie luv ginpassion bloggiee ...

hehe ... signing off liao ... to do project ... bye ...

My love typing my blog.. must read wad i wrote..

Today still need my only luv to help moi blog again.. haha.. hmm.. today me first lesson lab.. haha.. went read her blog and mine.. poor thing the hand.. bo bian.. com cant connect internet.. then hor.. at 1 went for the martial art day meeting.. boring as always..

yeah.. all ended liao.. went see shs day celebration.. some show quite nice wor.. haha.. then went atrium play iq game.. think tt person see me good ask me holiday wanna work with him..

haha.. i find it ok also.. not bad.. quite near my hse also..haha.. then went mac to discuss 'sth' but keep side track.. haha.. in the end.. nth much came out.. and end up say ghost story.. haha..

then today our long way fgot 2 more ppl too haha.. have alot of fun wor..haha... ya then when left us.. haha.. i swept her off her feet haha.. okokla.. i still can support her wt..haha.. happy.. haha..

then hor.. haha.. sth in my mind has been cleared.. haha.. my limits.. haha.. now ok liao.. haha.. so happy and relax.. i do think she is too ..haha... hm.. end here today.. or else ppl will complain sour hand again.. haha..

thank the person tt help me blog with her heart..haha.. muacks.. Love her..

type by: gingin

Today feel so bad.. cos did not call her in the morning.. her morning call.. i jus press th ealarm away.. haiz.. but heng she make it in time and the first to arrive ther wor.. haha.. good good..

Lesson was bored. then finally starve till 3 then eat first meal of the day.. haha.. finish eating liao.. know she at fountain.. friend suggest go mac or the library.. i first one very loud say mac.. Haha.. cos can see her.. then anxiously went tiolet.. then come out rel abit at fountain..

Ooo i am spotted.. haha.. so went and sat wif her.. haha.. happy to see her.. haha.. chatted.. then she got to practise her lab..better cos got test.. haha.. so she went and me go see stupid tv in mac.. their lab ended..Haha.. went to meet them.. haha.. knew she bought a mic..

haha.. to chat wif me wor.. or always she hear my voice thats wad.. that's wad she say.. haha.. happy to can hear her voice at home thru net.. hai.. but stupid com cant connect to internet.. arghs.. angry..

But she cool moi down alot.. then hor hear from uma that she torture gin alot.. haha.. is lol loh.. haha..hmm.. then walk long way home.. sometimes quiet..sometimes laugh.. haha.. the part wher we walking at the carpark ther was good.. haha..mysterious.. haha.. then sent her up lift..

Then say bye liao but pull her back to hug her.. i jus ask her hug me.. hug her tight.. then when wanna go off the hand yi yi bu she.. she say got ppl see.. Haha.. hug ma.. nth much ma.. haha.. but nvm..

so i went off for lesson.. panting.. haha.. i go lecture is like no go cos.. didnt listen.. not a single bit..

then hor in mrt saw this army guy so violent to the girlfriend and so fierce.. snatch hp also.. me say to my friend.. this guy kiam pa.. really..

haiz.. den hor now me sms my blog and ask ppl write.. haha.. internet spoilt.. wad the fuk.. siam.. think i ending here la..

last words.. i jus love the way u r.. yeah.. u just u and only u..

type by: gingin

A Love Wif Assurance A Love Thats Is And Will Be Preserve And Which Will Grow Stronger Day By Day

Form previous post ...
god dun want me to blog it ... but want me to say it ....

yeah ... good thing i say it ... :)

this is wad all went on in our heart ... sth i will keep in mind ... words that came right from the bottom of the heart ...

not a lie ... all true ...
Sth not jus to be remember in my memory but to be done
and a promise to be kept ...
a secret inside the heart that is reveal and assured wif cos thats wad both parties wanna to know and to hear ...
that the strength to keep it strong ..
thats my strength ... my strength ... to keep going ... to keep myself alive ...

here it is :

dUn miSs tHe sPeciAL oPpOrtUniTes bTw u aNd tt sPeciAL suM onE.. oR eLse.. U wiLL reGret iT.. aFteR.. =P says:
i want...... ewgy (L) ghyl.. as wad he says.. i want him to be able to wait fer me.. no matter how long.. as long as ever.. i want the other way too.. i wan him to be happy.. when he is waiting.. not sobbing.. cos if he is sobbing .. i rather he go find his happiness.. frm others.. i just want him to be happy.. wadever he do.. can he do tt?




(Online)ArchDevil?86:"Our Love Is My Strength 2 B Strong ... kibou dakeha shinjite(Believe in hope)ewgy (L) ghyl says:
i jus want u to be by my side ... wher i can guard u always ... cos u have touch to deepest in my heart ...
i jus don wanna u always go wif her feeling ... but since is this case
i wait ... i like i say wait for u ... why ... cos i know ... from other girls ... this is different feeling ... i feel comfort love ... alot ... i know intinctively is wad i looking for thats y i am holding it ...

i was feeling cold ... wanted warmth ... thats y
thats y all those happen ... ppl do feel cold even u do ...
my source is u ... ur source is me ... that is how i feel ...
am i right ???

dUn miSs tHe sPeciAL oPpOrtUniTes bTw u aNd tt sPeciAL suM onE.. oR eLse.. U wiLL reGret iT.. aFteR.. =P says:
ya.. u sure did..

dUn miSs tHe sPeciAL oPpOrtUniTes bTw u aNd tt sPeciAL suM onE.. oR eLse.. U wiLL reGret iT.. aFteR.. =P says:
urs words gave me assurance




and ur words gave me too ...


The Day Ends Bright ... i would save this part wif me ... in my phone ... in my desktop in my blog ... i have ur strength wif me ... and mine wif you ...

A Day Of Feelings ...

haha ...

jus now wad i type went all gone ...
haha ... guess is gods reply ...
i type alot of my feeling ...

then i ask god a qns ... shld i blog it ... then
i dun know y ... wanna copy all i wrote down ... in case got error ...
but as i press the arrow up key ... all ... everything jus went blank ...

i know that god ans ... i knew it ... haha ...

so now starting all over again ...
it wont be the same content again ... haha .. since i am not suppose to post it ... then ... i will post wad i want and have to say ...

haha ...
jus make it short ...
went to fountain ...
haha sw them playing cam phone ... haha i also happy happy went to them ... help them take pics ... haha ... lol loh ... then all
copy my 0 to 10 post of taking photo ... haha

but nvm ... happy can liao ... the pics are nice ... haha ... lol ...
knew tht they waited 1 hr for me ... wa ... so happy and yet nei jiu ... made them wait ...

then we went off the fountain ... we both took the long way home ...
haha i didnt blame the mp3 la ... but thx it cos i know without it u will feel lost like that ... haha

the silent walk was nice ... not much words does not mean anything ... walking by ur side mean more ...
i know u been keeping ur hand to ur side ... so i didnt do much ...
but jus don know y ... my hand found urs ... and i held it instinctively ...
i can feel ur "fan" feeling coming inside u liao ... hai ...
so didnt realli hold long ... but to jus catch hold of ur hand i feel good ...

hmm ... we walk and walk ... then sat down on bench ... i know her feeling inside her comes again ... ... i dun know wad to do ... but jus sat there and did nth ... cos thats the best i shld do ...

walk her home to her lift ... at the lift there ... i realli don wish for anyone other then we both of us ... haha heng ... no ppl ...
in lift ... realli dun know wad to do ... scare my action will hurt her ... so i stay still ... but inside my heart i jus long for a kiss ... but i know i cant ...
a hug ... jus a hug ... realli want it ... to warm my freezing heart ...
but thought of her feeling ...
then lift door open ...

she looked at me ...
i know wad she is thinking ...
but i jus mixed ... she i jus reply her wad ...
then when lift door closing ...
i wanna press open ... but it didnt open ...
too late ... i told myself ... i wont let this happen again ...
we always read ... do wad u wanna "do" today cos it will be too late tml ...

my stupid idoit piggy brain ... she call me but thinking too many things i didnt hear ... hten saw sms ... say wanna wave to me ... i was happy and gan dong ...

it was my feeling at that time ... jus wanna tell her ... but saw her blog ... over is over ... i dun realli mean all that ... i i i ... nvm ...

jus felt a sudden warm in my heart ... and wanna express it out ...

hai ... i am scared she will feel sad after seeing this ... again ...
face the qns .. shall i blog this ...
jus now the ans was no cos i think i had let all my feeling rule over me ...
i know shall blog this ... cos ...

blog is a place wher u put ur feeling in it ... if u don ...
it loses it meaning ...

hope u see liao ... don sad ... jus wanna see u happy ... ...
tell me wad u plan to do ... i will follow it to my veri best ...
until the day wher i lose control of myself ...
that will be the day wher i go mad ...

Boom Boom ...... Fire at works(fireworks)

today
...haha i shall start wif our trip to the esplanade
.....wahaha ...first on the bus ... haha ...
i help her massage her hand ... she also pain wor ... hai ... dun know got better or add worst ... but nvm la jus help her massage ... as long as it is better can liao ...

hmm then reach there ... wor alot of things to eat .. i wanna buy all ... haha ... buy don want la cant finish waste ... then i say wanna treat lavender ... haha ... must treat ma ... haha she look like me god mei ... same horo ... say skinny ... same ... oval face ... haha ...then hu call she is her mei also ... haha ... so i ok de ... treat her la ...feel like buy more ... arghs ... but nvm ... yl also don want ... don want be the onli person biting away ... wanna eat ... eat together ... don want to eat then don eat ... haha yeah ...waited there veri long ... sit till butts pain ... haha but nvm good view and got her can liao ... haha ... then hor got some china crows and bastard ... knn see lavender small good to bully is it ...if i am not wif them i will have scolded them ... but i didnt realli open mouth ... still got the 2 ard .... got to think of consequence ... good thing is lavender don mind ... or else .... i will shoot the crows down ...


then boom boom
haha saw it fire at works ... veri nice ... i imagine i sw a war ... misslies coming down ... or ... dooms day ... wher rock fall from sky .... how are we going to hide ... haha ... lol ...thats wad i tot ...haha realli nice some of the pattern it actually falls into the sea ... wor ... haha ... alto of nice pattern .... realli enjoy it especially wif her ... and her sis also ...haha ... then walk back ... lavender ar ... hai yo ...dun always say angry words(qi hua)if not one day u will regret ur action ...but is ok la ... u still young ... still got load of things wif loads of time to learn ... haha ...me hai ... old liao wor ... haha ...on the bus ... haha ... after step out to rehab center ... i feel better liao ... haha not that addictive .. haha ... althought it is ... haha ... spend wonderful time ... today ... will remember it ...

butpromise is still a promise ...

i once told myself that i will be a guy that will fullfill my promise to my best ...yeah ... cos i last time promise ppl ... then forget ... forgetful .. lucky is jus minor thing ...but this time is big thing ... haha will remember de ... unless ... ... ...""haha ...hmm ...

she wanna dye her hair black le ... hmm ... wonder how will it look like ... but nvm la ... how she look like doesnt matter to me at all .. ya ... it wont change my feeling also ... haha ...
:) a day to be remembered ... a day wher a joy ... a history to be enjoyed and look forward to the next ... preserve ...
press on and we shall see the sun rise soon ...
sun rise over the mountain ....
rays shoots thru the dew and produce to most wonderful thing in the worldthat is

RAINBOW ... A sign of hope ...rainbows ... the colors of the wind ...

WAN GUANGYAO ERIC >>> I LOVE YOU <<< HAN YILING GIN

A Day of all feeling ...

...
morning woke up ... open com ...
wa lavender wei also online...
haha so went to tok to her ... haha ...
keep asking her if she has woke up ... haha lol

wanna watch her sleep peacefully beside her bed ... haha

then afternoon she came online ... haha ...
yeah ... have web cam ... and also ... play games ... haha ... happy wor ...

then after that before dinner ... she ask if tml wanna see fireworks ...
agree la ..
haha ... confirm ... haha even more happy ...

then ... she ask if i looking 2wards tml ... of cos i am ...
then she say ya ... then she scare ... scare ... ...
hai ...
then i say out wad i think and feel la ...
then she didnt reply ...
i was so anxious and worried ...
tot she angry wif me ... or she sad or wad .... veri worried ... veri veri ....

play game also can play properly liao ... so i quit and came out ... then dinner time .. hai ...
then after dinner when see tv ...
haha ... finally she reply ... so happy ... ooo actually she was asleep ...
hai ... made me worried ... but since she is ok then i ok liao ... phew ...
heng she cant see how jing zhan i am ... phew ...

then hor go to training ground ... take clothes ... and then let master gif "massage" to my injured finger ...
endure the pain ... endure ... no tears man ... haha ... yeah its over ...
haha ... i know she heart pain ... xin teng ... my fault de ... hai ... next time must bai
to di gong so wont injured and then she no need pain liao ...

came back home .. chat wif her ... arghs ...
thinki i made her moody ... cos dun know y ... my brain cant understand wad she is trying to say .... i am veri sad too ... hit my stupid head ... hai ... stupid stupid head ... hai ... wad to do ...

hai ... moody ... wor ... me got it too ... hai ... but for her ... i don moody liao ... try to cheer her up ... but i think fail ... onli made her type haha ... i add on to her moodyness ... my fault ...

hai ... now she went to tok to her bloggy again ... scare that i see liao ... will be sad ... hai ...
but nvm la ... is ok ...

be human must look on the bright side ...(translated directly form chinese quotes)

waiting to see ur blog ...

I Know I Understand .... Wo Yao Ni Zhi Dao

I am Injured ... now jus me ... my the other half of my heart is hurt too ... ... me hurt it ...
My Heart Cry now ...
wo bu xiang ...
wo bu yao zhe yang ...
i at first don want to tell u ...
but i don want to lie anything from u ...
so i tell u ...

u are hurt ... i feel that when u msg me ...
i confirm it when i call u ...
and i wanna tell u that wo ... wo ... bu yao ni shang xin ...
bu yao ni xin tong ...
wad can i do ???

don feel bad liao ... i also will nan guo ...
as long as theres u ... i don need anything ...
i will make it heal as fast as possible ...
i know i can ...
so u don pain le ...
Pls don ... :'''''(
bu yao ni ku ...
i am in ur the other half of ur heart too ...


i know how u feel to me ... i told u in msn i know it ...
and i wanna say it again ...
Wo Zhi Dao Le ...
No One Can Change How A Person Feel Towards Another Person
No One Can No Matter How Powerful and Strong And Rich U Are ...
I Know Ur True Feelings

Wo Gan Jue De Dao ...
Ni Ye Shi ... Wo Ye Zhi Dao ...
Sharing Joy And The Tears Together ...
We Are Not By Name Bf And Gf
But U And I Know ...
Our Hearts Are ...
I Will Be Strong For u ...
Be Strong Also .......




LOVE DON NEED A REASON ..........

Same Day at home now

Home ... bath liao ...
haha

continue from sbm lab ... jus not long after i finish that blog ... sms came in ...
from her ... say go bowl ... on la ... of cos going la ...

haha ...
yeah after sch liao ... walk walk in sch to south canteen eat nugget haha then go lab wif friend to find com .. haha ... yeah ... is finally 2 ... went to meet for bowl ...

hai ... when i met her feel like ... erm ... how to say ... feel like get close to her ... but know cant ... hai ...

she know my attentation was on her la ... but jus bu zhi dao la ...

during the playing of bowl ... i know her mind was busy thinking ... haha ...
thinking of wad ... i can guess abit la ... haha ...

we both injured ... wanna help her an mo but hai ... nvm heng got mel ... haha
mel help her wif her hands ... haha

last game was terrible ... mind in a mess cos think too much hand pain ... then haha ball drop on floor ... haha ... bu bian ... haha ...

then hor ...game over le ... when walking out ... i wanna let her see the horo ... jus wanna share wif her ... but i guess ... it confuse her mind even more ... hai so sad ... so nei jiu ...
hai nearly cried abit in mrt ... or i shld say eye a drop of tears periodically cos listen to music also ma ... make me sadder ... haha

hai then i chose to slp so wont think but hai ... overslpt ... heng friend call ... haha .... heng wor ... if not go back yck then sian ... haha

hmm now back home bath liao ... feeling better ... haha ... later going training ... hope to be able to bring out the strength i had not been showing past 2 training ... hai ... giddy injured headache nearly vomit ... haha ... nvm liao is ok ... i am strong ....


I Found True Love ... Is The Love That Keep Me Strong ... If Not I Have Long Given Up ...
Don Say U Know True Love Untill U Have Taste It ... I Dare Say I Have And Given It Too ...

In SBM Lab

Haha ... in Lab ... Wanna write sth ... haha ... morning ... i suddenly have to urge to take the streats newspaper ...
read horoscope la ...

so i walk to sbm canteen to take the paper despite i am abit late ... haha

the paper wrote ...
sagi
If you are not interested , don't turn on the charm - not even a tiny bit.
If you are, then by all means, go for it. Just be careful what you wish for, because you'll cartainly have it now

then i finish reading at the lift there ... and ...
i wish for ... to be together wif her again ...
a "her" that has overcome her ownself ... yeah ...

then scorpio they wrote...
you're thinking serious about closing the distance between you and a dear one.
Before u assult ur visa for a ridiculously high last-min plane fare or drive
too many hours on too little sleep, at least stop and think abt it ...


it seems alot of thing comes into my mind ...
but it jus flash past ... but i am happy wif it ...
haha ... yeah ... now i jus wish for my wish to come true ....
waiting ..... :-)

nice day today

Yos ... I am Back ....
haha ...

today ... morning woke at 8 but don know why ... wanna get up but my mind tell my brain ...
hey i am still tired then so i continue to sleep until 1030 jus nice for me to prepare to sch ... haha

sat on the bed ... look at my hp ... hai then went to bath liao ...

zoom ....

now going to the mrt ... sms ... morning sms ...
haha ... sad la ... but understand that ... everyday see will get sick of it soon ... hai ...
so okok ... must ... plan ... haha ...
abit disappointed but at least i know that sth has to be followed ma ... haha ... i think onli i know wad i toking onli ... haha ... nvm ...

reach sch atruim liao ... my leg auto walk left instead of right ... haha ...
went to see her abit ... hai ... miss her ma ...
hai see her liao then went for class ...
don know if she saw me looking at her ...

haha nvm ... she will know it de ... haha

... zoom at break time ... go eat fj but too many ppl ... so da bao to mac ... tot can sit there watch her ... but she in fj ... haha ... so go mac find table ... then she call say she at fj saw me ...
arghs ... i went back fj to da bao .... ask my friend help me then i walk there looking ... cant find arghs ... then i think hai go buy fruits ... fruits ...i reach the counter there turn my head back ...
diao ... saw liao saw liao saw liao ... my eyes glowed ... on 7 heaven ... haha ... buy liao ... then take another glance at her then went off ...

after eating mac when wanna go saw her and friends walking at fountain there .... saw her back view ... hai ... realli must go running liao ... haha no la ... hai ... feel like go up and hug her tightly in my arms ... so off i go to atrium ... at atrium ... suddenly ... valentine sounded ... zoom ... picked up the phone ... ooo hear she need to know some info ... so convince friends to go lab ... haha ... reach lab ... see email ... no write wad i want leh ... so i call fua ... teacher in charge of us ... not ard ...
i sian half ... then hey i tot of sth ... i find sa phone number ... yupee found ... called mr guru ... pls him to help me ask ... haha ... yeah ... thx guru ... u the best indian i ever seen(the grass skirt dance haha) ... haha ...

know info liao fast fast call 10 told her ...
haha ... lab lesson wad a bored at start cos no idea wad i doing ... hai
frustrated sia ... listen to song ...
hands on my desk heads on my hand i lie there ... hai ... think of things again ... haha ... but sth brightens me up ...
sms ... phone sounded ... haha ... jus as long as i can hear a sound of u alive a sound of ur presense and know that u are happy ... i am happy ... haha suddenly i know wad i doing liao ... did the programming ... haha first was lagging behind ... now i overtake ppl and go teach ppl ... haha ... thats me la ... haha ...

arghs yesterday heard got 10 ppl friendster msg her ... arghs ... she was right ... smell vinegar ... haha ... ya got la abit ... erm ... ok la abit and more ... haha

saw my mei gif her friendster ... and her first ex ... hmm ... don know ... seems like i got sth to comment but yet cannot express it out ... haha ...

and now back at home blogging this ... she offline me is deeply missing her and thinking of her ...
I Love Her deeply ... so deep that i didnt realise it ... undescribable ...

i would wait for her ... but would she ??? i got feeling is that she will ... but yet i afraid time will prove it wrong ... i need assurance but yet i don want her to stuck on her words ... hai ...

Love is everything ... i ownself experience sth ... love can overcome everything ... can make u accept everything ... i am in it ...

Wonder when can i hug u again
Wonder when can i kiss that lips of urs again
WONDER WHEN CAN I SHOW U ALL MY LOVE AGAIN
The day will come ...

i know we physically are not together but our hearts are ...
once join ... it cant be seperated unless one die ... but if one dies ... the other dies too ...


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Start of Second Blog ...

Yos ... My First Blog has ended long ago ...
this is the start of my "second" and i will make it a lasting one

hmm today is a nice day ... first time i saw a rainbow so close to me haha
at first dun have ...
then i was veri sad ... hai ... then maybe ya ... god help me gif me hope ...
haha it appear ... i was so delighted ... haha ... this rainbow was a veri bright one
haha ...

meeting her ... was sure a delight to me ... haha ...
then hor when mel came ... she gave me a veri weird look ... haha
i know wad she is thinking la .. but nvm ... i know wad i want and care can liao ..
when i was sitting there ... i am facing her with a different status wif a different type of feeling ...
but i am ok wif it ... :-) can see her can liao ... saddly i got to go for my lab lesson ...

In lec was boring ... wanna sms but hai nvm ... so i listen to my new mp3 player bought by my bro ... hai ... listen to alot of song ... touches my heart ... hai ...
then before sch going to end wanna sms her ask wher she is but when heard my friend wanna go play pool so ok loh ... i drop the idea ... hai ...
reach there ... arghs lift spoilt ... find abt 5 mins then find the back stairs ... haha
when in the pool ... phone sounded ... delighted ... haha ... spirit lifted ... haha ...
then she called me haha ... heart brighten .... haha ...

the pool playing was make more fun for me haha ... thx ... enjoyed ...
haha ...

went back to sch for training ... sian ... hai ... cant do my things well ... don know ... feel veri tired ... ya tired ...
training ended .. walking to mrt ... hai

i not used to life wif my hp qui ... hai ... so i listen to mp3 again ... hai ...
but suddenly hp rang ... wa jump to my delight ... haha ... ya ...
till now writing this blog is all for the "moi"
haha lol ... i will write la ... keep update la ... haha ...

my msg nick :ArchDevil(6)万86: Waiting till the day wher we can be 2gether without guilt .. kibou dakeha shinjite(Believe in hope)"

ooo wait ... suddenly tot of sth to write ... impt ...
told shir and jo and moi thing ...
then jo say ... love is to bao rong everything ...
then i say to her ... everybody got different type of concepts and thinking ma ...
then i told her sth ... i don wanna tell u things is cos u always gif ur own comments and always keep insist it ... haha ...

okok ended ... someone cant wait for my blog ...

Love ya ...