wad can i say abt today ...

sob sob ...
crying hard in my hard ...
trying to avoid ...
trying to hide ...
acting hard to be happy and normal ...

think i can gif myself a gold horse award ...
zi you tao bi wo cai ke yi guo de bi jiao hao yi dian ...

qing ge wang zi zhang xin zhe
she bu de ni ...
hai ...
lyrics so true to me ...

who can understand the pain i am going thru ...
guess some ppl will ...

hate those fuk up feeling ...

how will u feel if see the one u love feel sad for the one she love ...
and the one she love is not u ...

u will be even sad right ... but who is going to care how sad u going to be ...

if looking back from now ...

it seems i am being dump for another guy ...


but maybe thats not the case
wadever it is ...

i am jus a piece of rubbish shit ..
thats wad i feel i am now ...

but so wad a rubbish maybe will get burn
or maybe made into a recycle item ...

but now i am still in the smelly rubbish bin located in a uluu place on earth ...
have yet been collected for years ...
still waiting for someone to collect it ...